By: Jehangir Saleh
Written: June 24, 2006
This story begins with an ending. An ending because it is only of what I can be sure. This is a story about me disguised as a story about you. The words came from somewhere in what I call myself, although I’m not sure were – it seems it always disappears once you examine it, like there is no self at all. They were then somehow formed in little pools of blood at the ends of my fingertips, which made me write them out. And now they are here. Until I decide they aren’t good enough, “that’s not something I would write”, and erase them.
Start again:
The seagulls looks suspicious and diseased. I am waiting for something bad to happen. It’s easier, I think. There is a woman staring the six lines of water rushing upward at College Park. Surronding massive building, running water, seems out of place. The foundation seems displaced in the scene, as if, in your mind, you edited in the six lines of water rushing upward to block out the what is real there.
The green wires that make up these chairs are hard, dividing the woman’s large, malleable ass into a 90/85 pattern of littles squares. If her husband wants to have children again tonight, he will feel ridges and be confused but won’t say anything.
As you walked next to the buildings, you can see a distortion of your face in the window. Funny how inside it always looked better. Inside is where you belong.
I am going to go for a walk now, hoping to meet someone along the way, if I don’t, however, I have told myself everything will remain, there is nothing to worry about.
POEM FOR WHAT YOU HAVEN’T LET ME HEAR