Poetry
149 poems, 1999–2010 · Browse the full archive
Soon to be soft, so tender, so sweet
Over the path I lure myself,
Only to cast away from love
This is on the million-mile road
Never understand what I really want,
Soft lips whisper ideas to me,
Whether they’re yours or the one’s in my head
They speak about the million-mile road
Mathematical problems I can never understand,
All the numbers relate to you,
Pages and pages of undone work,
Are completed on the million-mile road
Come closer as dawn peeks,
Life with you is a game of hide and seek,
Maiden visions from afar,
It all comes together on the million-mile road
The Million-Mile Road, 1999
In the openness of my mind there exist many dreams
Their eternal drama is released out through me
Burning holes in my brain the illusions slip through
They will torment my mind until they reach you
In the waves of uncertainty a young child drowns
Her fragile body is never to be found
For she was conceived inside my dreams
Where terror exceeds the limit of sanity
So be forewarned before you befriend me
I carry the manifestation of insanity
Obscured visions I have in the night
Are released in my actions upon daylight
This is really not what is seems
I am the terror who occurs in my dreams
Dreams, 2000
Listen, carefully
To the sound of emptiness
That screams through the walls
And yells from within
Complete silence
Of deafening volume
Ask me what is feels like to be lonely
The novels I will reply
If tranquility holds my peace of mind
Loneliness holds my insanity
Jehangir Saleh
Loneliness, 2001
Dear John, I sincerely hope you can help me
and my budding sexual frustrations.
My wife, she’s a lesbian, and you see,
I’ve found I’m gay and love mastication
But don’t worry, that’s not the problem.
Rather, we have not yet told each other,
though she has found my whips and stolen them.
And worst of all is her dying mother.
My in-laws are going a bit crazy,
they are lost, have absolutely no clue.
They really want kids, but we are lazy.
We’re stuck, and don’t know what to do.
Please help me John, I hope you’ll understand.
Sincerely, Confused and Worried Gay Man
We will walk together
Upon this darkly fragrant mountain
Only a silent understanding
Between us
If you weep
I will sip your tears
Like rosewater
You shoulder my sorrow
With a firm hand
Wet with
Tears
If You Weep, 2004
Having trouble composing my life
To fit with yours
Lives
That fit together
I can’t promise that you really love me
Our lives kind of fit together
Stories are just good
The simple story of a woman and a man
Like everyone
One in the morning, I am trying to be poetic. But no luck. Nothing. And not even Beckett’s nothing, just nothing like vast amount of mediocrities, which is the worse nothing of all.
I am writing this because I don’t have you with me. I am listening to Russian classical music, as Tchaikovsky pours down piano keys , I think of how to do the same with words. What to do when words cannot be reached. There is touch. And I wish to hold you in my arms. Perhaps, it is me who is being held.
I was trying to write something to give you on your birthday. I don’t really believe in birthdays – it seems too much like an excuse to love someone. I want to love you forever, not just on the day you were born. However, the day that you embraced the world is an important one.
On this day I want you to look ahead. I want you to stand on this mountain – our mountain – and close your eyes for a moment. I want you to imagine
Lives, 2004
I miss you
like my warm blue blanket
that i was held in as a child
your arms are goodness and comfort
because they hold me, just enough
so i can see my toes touch the ground
i miss you
like the poetry of Leonard C.,
and Brahms, and a perfect cup of tea
I miss you
and I love you
and I pray
that you
miss me too
Poem For L, 2004
It was like
The answer to all our
Questions
on voice in the air
but no one stopped
as the subway musician sang
Hallelujah
And what if I told you
That everything
You are searching for
I already found?
You would kiss me
To silence
And keep on searching
For yourself
Subway Poem Song, 2004
I miss you
But only the parts
made of me
in this way
we become
real
to each other
still
I’d rather you be here
Than to be writing
Alone again
I was so lonely tonight that I imagined someone following me. Following myself. Nothing really.
I like how the dirty pavement at Yonge&Bloor supports the weight of my body as I sit down to write a poem, drawing the words out from the heart of a wound.
Attractive and intelligent women are too scared to notice the relatively well dressed hobo writing a poem about them on the street corner.
This is a really terrible way to attract attention, I think. Even worse making friends. But I’m here. Waiting.
Again.
Temendous amounts of power are taken away from me on this corner; everyone is higher, they must look down at me.
This poem doesn’t matter. It is only for me. I have finally admitted that the wound is my own. I will stop trying to create and fix the hearts of those around me.
On the street, I am a bum. Alone.
And somehow, I feel free.
Street, 2005
Selected 35
- The Million-Mile RoadSoon to be soft, so tender, so sweet
- A Woman Standing In The RainI look outside my window
- DreamsIn the openness of my mind there exist many dreams
- LonelinessListen, carefully
- The Great Hater…These I have hated
- The JourneyI am following the right path
- This Is All I KnowI will reveal myself
- A Funnel In My EarFor Lindsay
- Fire HydrantsJehangir Saleh
- MagicThere is something
- Oh No, Suicideit’s so easy
- The Sex Columnist’s SonnetDear John, I sincerely hope you can help me
- Untitled Because I Don’t Know What Else To SayUntitled Because I Don’t
- Waiting For A Woman With Nothing Else To Do But ThinkWaiting For A Woman
- I gave to you
- If You WeepWe will walk together
- Your Ankles
- Ode To Chininskinot feeling very well
- LivesHaving trouble composing my life
- Poem For LI miss you
- Poem For A Night And A NationThough we are made hard
- CirclesI am trying to take a poem
- Subway Poem SongIt was like
- Forcing A PoemYou believe
- Longing, Queer And IncompleteI miss you
- There Is More In This World Than Can Be Dreamt In Your PhilosophyWhere have you been
- Justiceperhaps justice
- My wife
- Poem To Be ForgottenYou say you love me
- StreetI was so lonely tonight that I imagined someone following me. Following myself. Nothing really.
- Going NowherePen hesitates
- Poem For Machine NightMidnight
- Jehangir The Dorkgrade nine
- Mid Afternoon The Season Changesthere is less time inside my body
- Mid Afternoon The Season Changeslimbs sigh
All poems
1999
- The Million-Mile RoadSoon to be soft, so tender, so sweet
- Joy Sonnet in a Random UniverseSometimes I’m happy: la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la. Tum ti tum. La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la. Hey nonny nonny. La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la. Vodo di o do. Poo Poo pi doo. La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la. Whack a doo. La la la la la la la. Sh-boom, sh-boom. La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la. Dum di dum. La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la. Tra la la. Tra la la la la la la la la la la. Yeah yeah yeah.
- Backdrop Addresses CowboyStarspangled cowboy
2000
2001
- LonelinessListen, carefully
- Cinnamon HeartsI am bitter
- Big Black ShoesFor Tiffany
- It BeginsReality leaks
- ToesIf I were a dying mite
- The Great Hater…These I have hated
- Ode To My SocksMaru Mori brought me
- The Job Of A DoorknobThe job of a Doorknob is to be rounded,
- Ode To A Box Of CrayonsMy sister Jasmine brought me
- Our WorldI step outside into the open world
- An Ode To The Job An OdeWorms are soldiers
- A Tree In The WinterFor Julia
- The Shrink And Serial KillerElves and dwarfs and midget’s,
2002
- The JourneyI am following the right path
- This Is A Good PoemHe wraps himself
- Cheryl’s CupDelicoius –
- This Is All I KnowI will reveal myself
- Unsure CompletenessI am frightened of your completeness
- A Funnel In My EarFor Lindsay
- Fire HydrantsJehangir Saleh
- Untitled SongIf I killed myself
- MagicThere is something
2003
- AppleAs the earth circles the sun
- I Am CancerIt doesn’t matter to me
- I Love YouNever, have I found a lover
- Mr. ArmstrongA tribute
- Oh No, Suicideit’s so easy
- The Sex Columnist’s SonnetDear John, I sincerely hope you can help me
- To LoveI was afraid once you came
- Untitled Because I Don’t Know What Else To SayUntitled Because I Don’t
- Waiting For A Woman With Nothing Else To Do But ThinkWaiting For A Woman
- WarningMass graves
- YeatsYesterday
- Please Stopto the herd
- Gesture at Bay & BloorEasy to trip on
- This Is Not Speech To Divine RevelationThis little boy
- After Getting LostYou remind me
- Where Are YouI am dying inside
- Bus Ride 2there’s a disparity between
- Nothingupon arriving
- I Am Dying InsideI am dying inside
- I gave to youI gave to you
- List Before We DieVARITATION ONE
- Final Movement 3Art is
- It Has OccurredAs the sound of lapping waves
2004
- I am uglyI am ugly
- GoatI gave you my goat
- A Letter To The Premier Of OntarioSurely, sir, you are a fair and reasonable man
- He Said, She SaidYou want to person who isn’t the poet to do the first line, she said.
- I Would Like You To KnowI would like you to know
- If You WeepWe will walk together
- Your AnklesYour Ankles
- Ode To Chininskinot feeling very well
- EndI writing an end
- HappinessTo be proud of your own eulogy
- LivesHaving trouble composing my life
- I do not believe in rampant sunsetsI do not believe in rampant sunsets
- Poem For LI miss you
- Different Variations Of The Same NoteAs I sit here inside my mind is fuzzy and fractured
- Questionsyesterday,
- Too Close To The Edgeshe almost fell
- Willowremember the willow
- Light a candleLight a candle
- HomageJesus was not elected
- There are those whoThere are those who
- Poem 5Poem 5
- Your Mind Is A Creature Who Runs MadlyYour mind is a creature who runs madly
- Marionit’s the killer combinations
- What if I wroteWhat if I wrote
- Poem In My BedI promised you
- GrowingToday
- Poem For A Night And A NationThough we are made hard
- CirclesI am trying to take a poem
- Tonight We Talked About DeathTonight we talked about death
- Poem For Samuel BeckettDear Mr. Beckett,
- Subway Poem SongIt was like
- Forcing A PoemYou believe
- The Space BetweenThere is strength
- Love PoemMarriage
- Longing, Queer And IncompleteI miss you
- There Is No One Outside The BuildingThere is no one outside the building. I cannot see them. I cannot know they exist. I suppose it is logical to say that I exist, sitting at a desk in a room with two other breathing bodies. One is trying to ignore the other who has been sick all night. One is buried under blankets on the floor. I cannot see their body, but I hear some breathing, so I guess it is possible that they are still there.
- QuietQuiet
- There Is More In This World Than Can Be Dreamt In Your PhilosophyWhere have you been
2005
- VictoryTime is passing
- Justiceperhaps justice
- Poem For YouIt occurs to me
- Annanda’s WorkApr. 10, 2000
- Death Of Someone You Don’t KnowNo more pretending
- Poem For Youi have been questioning
- In The Worst Of TimesToday was our Anniversary
- Listening To Men Sing In Praise Of Their CreatorListening to men sing in praise of their creator
- You Tell Me That The UniverseYou tell me that the universe
- Poem Where You Move ForwardSlightly behind
- My wifeMy wife
- Poem After A Long TimeAfter too much time in reality
- Another Piece Of WritingI’ve already written so much about being alone. How many more times can the same theme be re-worked until it drifts into a nameless fog, or worse, popular culture?
- Poem To Be ForgottenYou say you love me
- Poem On BusMoving toward home
- Abraham Carried The Light Of GodAbraham carried the light of God. As he walked to Mt. Moria with Issac, he could not explain what he was doing to his wife. He could not explain what he was doing to himself. Abraham, the first prophet, sacrificed his only son in the hope that somehow, everyone would be ok. And when I young, I often wondered what would have happened had Isaac not turned into a goat.
- After The Evening Poemlake be still
- EvolutionWhen I hold your body
- AloneI wrote my first poem
- Poem At The Endit’s still all about me
- Poem For MyselfI don’t really live my life anymore
- Dark and SilenceGabrielle ordered Mohammed
- Praying And DeathI knew a man who kept the bones of this wife wrapped in a white bandanna. He would take these pieces out – pieces of her fingers, the fragments of bones – and play with them like a jigsaw puzzle while he cried so silently. Once he put her hand together, he press his hand down on the fragments of bone, closed his eyes and whispered something. I do not know what he whispered. He was not religious, but it seems like he was praying to something. Prayer comes so naturally to those around death. It is the only way to understand it – by appealing to forces that we cannot prove or know to exist – only through the forces of nothing do we understand nothing itself; the dying cannot do anything but pray. Everything they do becomes a prayer. The brushing of teeth is no longer to what it is to the living (to fight tooth decay), it becomes a symbolic gesture of wanting to hold on. Praying is all the dying do.
- The NightThe night
- StreetI was so lonely tonight that I imagined someone following me. Following myself. Nothing really.
- Tonight You CriedTonight you cried, and I tried to be the man I wanted to be when I was seven years old.
- Poem For The Way Things Ought To BeFree
- Fragments1. When I wake up
- Going NowherePen hesitates
- September 21stSitting on the floor
- EndI was frightened
- Light 2If all the lamps in the house
- Poem During The NightWake up
- There Is A Naked Woman In The Middle Of The Highwaythere is a naked woman in the middle of the highway
- Morning Feels Slipperymorning feels slippery
- SunsetsSunsets(1)
- Poem Into The Futureit is not that we have changed
- PoetryIt is very unlikely that
- When I DieMy friend Marie in Sweden will die soon if she does not get a set of new lungs. The two fish in her chest cavity are flopping and beating madly against her rib cage as she tries to inhale. They give up on the exhale. I don’t blame them. After 19 years of beating madly, her lungs are tired and soon will give up for good.
- Dear MarieDear Marie
- HideMy friend Marie in Sweden is dying
- Poem For Machine NightMidnight
- WaterAalya does not know what a machine is
- Poem About UsI have trouble writing poetry about you as you are
- Suicide BomberEveryone on the bus is quite